Sunday, February 04, 2007
Here I am. Alive and well. I wake up every morning. I get my kids ready for school. I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. My life is continuing, just as it should. My friend Julia has a good way of explaining how one is doing by using percentages. In my case, I've had days that were 40% and days that were 90%. I have gone a few full days without thinking about Adam now. First of all, that doesn't make a day harder or easier, it just is... And second, do I feel bad for not thinking of him? My answer is no. I don't think of my mother every day but I love her and she is a part of me. There are friends I love but don't call and they are still just as much a part of me. So it goes as any deals with grief...
Today is a 90% day so far. I decided I'm not going to be my children's Sunday School teacher any more so I didn't have to be at church today until 11! We had a potluck at the church which I chose not to bring anything to because I end up leaving with most of it because there's so much freakin' food... So that was good. Then Ben asked me if I wanted to just stay at the church to work on the computer and he would take the kids on home. That's great, too. Ben's buddy, Wilson(not a volleyball), is coming over in a little bit for the Superbowl so it's probably gonna be a good evening, too.
My sister-in-law Jessics is really sick with her second child so please be praying for her and for Ryan who has to be Superdad. I can't imagine how hard it is for them right now!
You can also check out my friend Julia's blog. I have a link for it now. I set it up for her when I was snowed in at her house on Emma's birthday last month and today is the first day I've gotten to read it. Go ahead, feel sorry for me. :)
Stay tuned for a post on a great book my padres gave me on dealing with grief. It's a keeper and it's short!