Sunday, February 04, 2007

An update



Here I am. Alive and well. I wake up every morning. I get my kids ready for school. I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. My life is continuing, just as it should. My friend Julia has a good way of explaining how one is doing by using percentages. In my case, I've had days that were 40% and days that were 90%. I have gone a few full days without thinking about Adam now. First of all, that doesn't make a day harder or easier, it just is... And second, do I feel bad for not thinking of him? My answer is no. I don't think of my mother every day but I love her and she is a part of me. There are friends I love but don't call and they are still just as much a part of me. So it goes as any deals with grief...

Today is a 90% day so far. I decided I'm not going to be my children's Sunday School teacher any more so I didn't have to be at church today until 11! We had a potluck at the church which I chose not to bring anything to because I end up leaving with most of it because there's so much freakin' food... So that was good. Then Ben asked me if I wanted to just stay at the church to work on the computer and he would take the kids on home. That's great, too. Ben's buddy, Wilson(not a volleyball), is coming over in a little bit for the Superbowl so it's probably gonna be a good evening, too.

My sister-in-law Jessics is really sick with her second child so please be praying for her and for Ryan who has to be Superdad. I can't imagine how hard it is for them right now!

You can also check out my friend Julia's blog. I have a link for it now. I set it up for her when I was snowed in at her house on Emma's birthday last month and today is the first day I've gotten to read it. Go ahead, feel sorry for me. :)

Stay tuned for a post on a great book my padres gave me on dealing with grief. It's a keeper and it's short!

10 comments:

Melissa S. said...

Miss you Jen. I was thinking about you yesterday. And I was a bad girl and didn't pick up the phone. Instead you got a prayer. Love you lots.

Marta said...

Can't wait to hear about the book. Glad you are having a 90% day. I'll pray you have another tomorrow. We love you guys and would love to get together soon!

tara said...

glad youre still kickin'...ive been wanting to check in on you, but i feel like you probably still have way too many people doing that. wasnt it fun to have you here in O.K.? wretched circumstances but i loved spending time with my sissy.
p.s. "not the volleyball" good one. LOL

kaydub said...

You make me smile and make me proud. And I love the pic; it fits your words perfectly. Because of the photo, as I read, I could hear your voice.

Jen! You know your mom reads this blog! At least you didn't say, "I think of my dad every day but not my mom ..."

Secondly, I can't wait to hear your observations on the book! Aint it wonderful? Liberating?

Kristen said...

Hey Jen and Ben too because I know he reads/comments on the Blog. We been thinking about you guys, while freezing our butts off. I think its about 8 degrees outside.
There's a new-ish Amos Lee album. It's called "Supply and Demand" was wondering if you'd heard it? And as you know, I'm all about helping you discover awesome artists. So if I didn't tell you already. You need to check out Ray LaMontagne, "Trouble." Try it, you'll like it.
And if you feel like you just need to get away, you can always come to Connecticut, and you guys can stay in the extra bedroom, and we can put your kids in the basement. But I'll warn you, it's frickin' cold.
Kristen McCook

Ben said...

Kristen,

We have the Supply and Demand album...we got it the first day it came out. I think his two best songs are still on the first album, however, overall I like this album more. As for Ray...my brother just told me about him and I got the album last week. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT! I haven't had a chance to share it with Jen, although I'm sure she'll like it. You have good taste, keep passing names on.

Ben

rici said...

I'm thinking about you a lot these days...not like you don't run through my mind every day, but I have decided that this year I am bringing "me" back, much like Justin Timberlake...i wanna be sexy too. I have decided to do the things that really bring my heart joy this year, and quilting is one of them...I have you and your precious aunties and grandma to thank for that!! Because of you, I'm making Kelly (Anderson) Oaks a baby quilt. Here's stichin' at you kid!

p.s. miss and love you very, very much. I have a personal dream of how to get you guys back to Portland. I'll have to share it with you soon...

Tracey Ries said...

Hi Jen, Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you. Love, T

Lynsey said...

You guys continue to be in our thoughts and prayers as well. In so many ways, I wish you guys could be up here with all your old friends. It really makes me sad for all of you that you aren't. I know they would sure love to be with you guys - especially right now. We absolutely love ECC - but it kills me that we found out about it because you left. I know that God is blessing you there and in the journey you are taking ... but know that you are missed. :)

Looking forward to hearing about this book. Here's to many more 90% days...

marmme said...

Glad you are having slower paced Sunday mornings - not teaching class. Glad you didn't bring a pot luck dish - you have so many good decisions! Much peace to you sweetie. You are one of my heroes.