Friday, April 28, 2006
What Will I Choose?
Can I just comment on the title of my blog page? Every day I have the choice to live for something or to simply exist. I'm sure it's hard for many people, but I find it difficult to live purposefully. I have to focus intensely to remember that I'm living for a certain reason and I forget every five minutes. It's very exhausting. I can plan to live intentional and make lists and think of very specific ways to live out my days. I can get excited and passionate about striving to be more than I am right now, wanting to be the hands and feet of Jesus to my children and my husband, but I lose focus so quickly. I obviously need power from a higher source so I suppose that the more time I spend with Jesus, the more I'll become like him, and the more I'll live , truly live. I laugh like Ben, I use the same phrases as Chelan, and I find myself repeating the things my children say. I do that because I spend a lot of time with those people. I want to talk like Jesus. I want to step in the same places he steps. I want to be a copy cat. I want to live, not just exist. How do you choose to live?